What Do I Want to Read in This Book?


my book writing processAs I work on the book proposal, I asked myself this question today: What do I want to read in a book?

Here’s what I scribbled in pencil on white paper at my desk this morning:

In reading this, I want to become more of myself.

In reading this, I want to gather up the pieces of my life and see them as valuable, not wasted. I want to see them as Jesus sees them–through eyes of wholeness and Love. I want to remember that it’s not too little and not too late.

In reading, I want to expand in how I see my story–even the shame parts–and how it makes me who I am today.

I want to feel vast, larger, more connected with the God of the universe and the people of the earth.

I also want to feel the earth underneath my bare feet, like I am connected, deeply connected, to my place, here and now.

In one of my conversations at my desk in my room in Taipei, more than a decade ago, I said to Spirit: I want to know how it all fits together.

Audacious? Yes. But something I am still hungry for. I like to see the whole. The big picture. Perhaps I believe that, in seeing the whole, I can see more of my part in it.

I want to put down the book and feel more of that.

I want to read something that gives me glimpses into how Life works. Good, flourishing, Spirit life. Tree-planted-by-the-river life.

Something that says to me, I’m not crazy for dreaming Big. That little idea–the one that won’t go away–and the myriad of thoughts inside me, they have worth. I am not crazy.

Something that says, Dreamers + Doers unite.

Nobody wins until we all do.*

And: Women of the world, we’re all in this together.

I hope these very things I am wanting to read, will accompany me as I write through this project … as ideas become words and words become sentences and sentences become a whole big idea again.



I’d love to know: What would YOU like to read? What book or feeling or idea would you like to read that you haven’t read yet? (Is this something you need to write, perhaps?)

What would you like to read in my writing?


* That line is from a workshop I attended in Taiwan, called Business & You by David Neenan, based on much of the work of Buckminster Fuller.

  • Claire Colvin

    I get excited just thinking about you writing a book. This is going to be fantastic.

    There’s a line in one of my favourite songs that says, “I sat beside you and became myself”. As I read this post, it came to mind again. That’s what I’d like to read in a book – something that when I come away from spending time with it I am more myself than I was before. I saw a blog once called, “I grew up without a roadmap to myself” and I think that’s true for so many of us. We know some of the pieces, but as you said, not how they all fit together.

    It feels a little selfish to say, “I want a book that tells my story, one that explains me to me” but how can we understand the world, how can we help the world, if we’re looking at it through a damaged lens, an in correction assumption about who we are?

    • http://www.idelette.com idelette

      Thank you so much, Claire!

      You always have the best quotes and lines … seriously. Those two lines are amazing … Thank you for sharing that. I would love a roadmap too … and some beautiful lenses.

  • Nicole A. Joshua

    “In reading, I want to expand in how I see my story–even the shame parts–and how it makes me who I am today.” Whenever you write, you inspire this feeling in me. You make me want to hear your voice more. So, in answer to your question, “What would YOU like to read? What book or feeling or idea would you like to read that you haven’t read yet?” I would like to read a book where I hear your story, your long walk to freedom, your passion, your wisdom. In short, I want to read a book that sounds like you, like that roar that comes through every post you write.

    • http://www.idelette.com idelette

      You’re the best … :)

      Thank you, my friend. Thank you for calling out the roar in me. xo

      • Nicole A. Joshua


  • Sarah Silvester

    I’m so excited that you are writing a book Idelette! I’m behind the times and had missed the news, so congratulations! I loved your chapter in “the practice of love”, on rediscovering femininity and what it means to you to be a woman. I’d love to read more about that in depth, your own story from South Africa to Taipei to Canada. I just love your heart and would read anything you wrote :-)

    • http://www.idelette.com idelette

      Thank you, Sarah! Your words are so encouraging and feel like a kind, wonderful, life-giving hug.

      Thank you. Thank you. Thank you!

  • http://jasonandkelliwoodford.blogspot.com/ kelli woodford

    A lightbulb just went off for me in reading this. Because somewhere between all the pieces of life being gathered into a whole and nothing being wasted and the dreamers and doers uniting – I realized that while I may BE a dreamer more than a doer, I NEED DOERS. So often I have turned my back on those who are differently gifted, just because what they write/do/say/live doesn’t resonate with the direction in which I feel myself come most alive.

    BUT perhaps I’m not supposed to BE them, I’m just supposed to support them. Supposed to LOVE them. Supposed to NEED them.

    And maybe THIS is the Body? One part cannot say to the other “I don’t need you”, right? Wow. Idelette, you have a way of writing, speaking and living that opens wide the gates of heaven for me. Thank you. I look forward to anything that flows from your pen.

    • http://www.idelette.com idelette

      Kelli, I can only be thankful! Wonderful to hear how Spirit flows between and through the words. That is what I can only hope for. I am learning that part too, in so many ways.

      O, how much we need each other … yes.

  • sandyhay

    I woke up in the middle of the night thinking about this. 30+ years ago I read all the Madeleine L’Engle books I could get my hands on. She helped me work through what I was hearing/seeing in the church. Oh, I’ve always been in the church but the definition of who I was as a woman in the Christian world was muddled. The secular world wanted me to be a feminist but then I wasn’t having the woman’s movement’s definition either. And the military world (my husband’s career for 20 years) had an altogether different way of thinking. Now I MUST read you and Sarah Bessey and Carolyn Custis James and Rachel Held Evans and all your writers at sheloivesmagazine among others who help me from sinking into the miry clay. I do believe the older women of our churches have a responsibility to the younger generations. Yet in order to do this I must also listen to you. I learn SO much from younger women. Your thought processes help keep me moving forward with the plan I know is still ongoing. Now, I don’t actually know that this answered your question Idelette;) but I do know that whatever God has you write, I’ll read.

    • http://www.idelette.com idelette

      Thank you so much for your encouragement, Sandy. It means a lot–wind beneath my wings. I may need to come up with a little fresher expression of that, but my brain is a bit done right now. Full family-ish day. :)

      I agree with you–we need to weave together. Older and younger. Calling out the Beautiful we see, regardless of age. Bringing what we have … I appreciate walking with you in this. Thank you so much. xoxo